Still... (!)

It’s been ages since I wrote anything here and I wonder…
Have I been too busy?... running away from memories? ..all in the pretence of work? Would I ever recover from this state of mind?

I think I would… but it’s definitely taking too long a time.
I’ve learnt that life goes on… waits for no one!

And here I am … going on… living…
Taking each day at a time… still running away.
Wondering when I can stop.

I know I aint the same anymore. I’ve lost trust and faith in mankind. And I mean this literally!

The more I learn, the more I hurt. I don’t want to uncover the past… but as I go on … friends and foes do that uncovering for me... they even hurt to tell me the truth. But they do eventually. And I keep hurting each time I hear it.

I want to be free again… free from this pain. And sometimes, I fall into the comfort of those who love me and I am inspired to keep forging ahead. They bring the Leo out of me and I roar for a while and refrain once again.