Scattered thoughts...

I don’t believe in love anymore! I loved with all my heart, gave it away and it was thrown back at me... annihilated and in pieces.... for me to pick up and put together. And yet, a greater part of it is still with him.

And yet, while I loved (and I still do), I had the strength and hope to carry on… come what may. Even went through the worst ever recorded tsunami with love!

And now, I’ll keep wondering for the rest of my life…
What went wrong?
What’s the difference in me?
Is there something wrong with me?
What could change a man so completely?... from what I thought to be love to an almost cold hostility!?

And yet I continue to love the same person who cares less! Ageno tells me I have the Battered Wife Syndrome! Whatever that means!!!

You may ask my eyes to stop looking at you (I dont! That's why I try not to see you)…
You may ask my brains to stop thinking about you (Sometimes I try! By distracting myself)…
You may ask my imagination to stop dreaming about you (Yet at night I do dream of you)..
You may ask my hands to stop reaching for you (I don’t! That's why I respect your wishes not to be close anymore)…
You may ask my legs to stop walking towards you (I’ve come close to knocking at your door and turned back many times…)
You may even ask my heart to stop beating!

But..... don’t you ever stop me from loving you!!!