Reflections

Another year passed by and I look back at the good, the bad and ugly moments of my life. Guess this is the rough portion of my life which was noted on my palms by one of the palmists! Didn’t believe him then!

Some words to summarize my year, starting exactly a year ago: Love, France, Mu Ko Surin, Tsunami, diet plan, Piyantha, Niranjala, Siam Park, depression, Bangkok General Hospital, Nurinj, Bangkok Heart Hospital, Riva’s Sheraton, Said Irandoust, Uncle Omara, Kao Yai, PBL Group, Gloria, Shanker, Sri Lanka, blind date, Nijat, Arundhathie, first ever resignation, Seva, B-Care, Jeap, Bobby-Inate-Etiene telephonic conference! etc….

They say “better to forget and smile than to remember and be sad”? Well, easier said than done! Life goes on!

There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go.

Thank you!

Thanks for making me laugh
even though you really didn't want it to last..

Thanks for always making me smile,
even though you regret those whiles..

Thanks for making me glad
even though you know it wanted to all be bad..

Thanks for always being there
even though you really didn't care..

Thanks for listening when i was around
even though you rather not listen and look at the ground..

Thanks for tellin me that everything was gonna be okay,
even though you knew it was not going to like today..

Thanks for always saying you loved me true,
even though we both know it was only me who really loved you . . .

Still... (!)

It’s been ages since I wrote anything here and I wonder…
Have I been too busy?... running away from memories? ..all in the pretence of work? Would I ever recover from this state of mind?

I think I would… but it’s definitely taking too long a time.
I’ve learnt that life goes on… waits for no one!

And here I am … going on… living…
Taking each day at a time… still running away.
Wondering when I can stop.

I know I aint the same anymore. I’ve lost trust and faith in mankind. And I mean this literally!

The more I learn, the more I hurt. I don’t want to uncover the past… but as I go on … friends and foes do that uncovering for me... they even hurt to tell me the truth. But they do eventually. And I keep hurting each time I hear it.

I want to be free again… free from this pain. And sometimes, I fall into the comfort of those who love me and I am inspired to keep forging ahead. They bring the Leo out of me and I roar for a while and refrain once again.