A busy day...

I’m so busy today…
So much work to do at the office.
Much coordinating and communicating… almost never ending.

I also got a slight headache somewhere upstairs (in my head!). I went to the clinic and they give me these extra large XXL green Vitamin C tablets which they tell me to take with water! Ever heard of Vitamin C tablest that are not chewable??? First time for me!

Anyway… in addition to that, I do have lots more in my head. Have to go shopping again… and most importantly, have to buy the ticket! How could I forget that?!?!

Last night, I was able to get the charger from Zeer. No extra effort whatsoever. I thought it’d take ages to locate a charger for a Panasonic GD 35! It’s such an old but cute model! Rush came along with me and so did the baby. She does enjoy bus rides although the commuter on the next seat doesn’t feel the same!

And tonight, I think I’m going to go SLEEP early. This flu is annoying me! I really cant entertain it at this period in time!

Birthday...

It's 23rd November (AGAIN!)... can't believe that a year has gone by.

Well, I am thankful for my life and for that of my family. They've been there for me all the time... through thick and thin and still love me all the same despite my short comings.

I'm also glad that I have friends. And I mean REAL friends not the seasonal ones that come and go when they please and when it suits them. I have those that stick around with me despite the season.

I guess there're many things to be thankful for and it is the season of thanksgiving!

As I sit back and reflect on the year that has passed, it brings tears to my eyes as it it this year that I was the happiest and the saddest... both extremes from Nov. '03 to Nov. '04.

And this coming year? What lies in store for me? I don't know! I only hope that the happy times outnumber the sad. That's all I can pray for.

December plans... cont

I did chat with Thathi about it again and now they discover that 13th would be good for me too.... so, I guess I'll be making a quick exit out of here and would be back by 17th.

I do need the break... there's too much emotional stress that I can't handle anymore. I need to get out of here more often.... and home's the best place. I need some comfort too.. ( I don't need sympathy!... for sure I don't get that at home!!!).

Guess when I'm back, I'll go with the DEC gang to the Islands... it's bit pricy but I'll be out of here.

Meli said I should consider the France option. But how can I consider something that's not being considered and mentioned by him? (I really wanted to go you know... I'd saved up for it for some time... :() He doesn't want me there it seems.

Does he want me at all? I mean in his life? Because if he doesn't, I'd really like to know now! I don't want to be interfering in people's life's. And besides, I should carry on with MY life... I have one too, don't I?

December plans...

Well... what to say? I really want to go but my stars seems to say that I stay put! Or go somewhere else? Me don't know yet!

Of course if I don't go home then there's the option of going down South with the DEC group... it's going to be me alone (I mean... don't have a partner)... so, I hope it won't be a problem per se as there's supposed to be some sort of sharing in the overnight accomodations (which is supposed to be tents)

Only tomorrow will tell what it's like. Have to chat with Thaththi.

Heavenly serpents...!!!

You know what happened this morning?

At the bakery (UFM) having coffee and looking at some paintings with Rush… something dropped from above against my hand and fell to the stone chair. Thought it was some twig or something (Rush thought it was a caterpillar!!!). Whatever it was stood still… and for a fraction of a second, I myself couldn’t figure out what it was (as it was motionless!!!) and then it moved…!!! A green baby snake!!!

Rush said not to worry that I’m LUCKY!!! Yeah, right!!!

Me

I don't know why I started this but I thought it was a good way to get rid of unwanted thoughts... it's almost like I told someone and got it off my mind.

Right now, I'm not in any good mood! You must have notice that already! Sorry! It's just that I needed to get this shit (solly!) outta my head....

I've been really upset lately... everyone seems to be everywhere else with
everyone else but me! What's the big deal? It's just that I felt left all alone! all of a sudden!

I used to be alone before but then, that was THEN! Now I'm used to hanging around and not being alone.

He's gone away... too far away. She's 'busy'! (If you know what I mean!), the rest seem to be busy tooo!!! What to do?